I still feel a little bit scared and apprehensive of the future. I have been doing a lot of self analysis and using the law of attraction model, have realized how I have attracted many things in my life without nowing that I was attracting them. I do not remember so much of my childhood days but all I know is that I was very slow as a child as in dumb in class and I did not have a lot of refined motor skills. I have no idea why I was like this, but funny enough there are times when I would show impromptu characteristics of bravery, risk behavior, brilliance and the like.
I remember one time I was waiting for my mother to pick me from school when I was in nursery school, my mother was late and I just decided to go home alone. Now, this is a very brave decision for a kid who is about 6 years old. At that time I just decided to do it. Als0, I was never very brillian academically, I did not know why, but I just was not brilliant, but I started becoming better academically when I started becoming more brave and enjoying my time in school. Moreover, I really started looking for ways on how I could improve myself academically. I looked upon the most brilliant students in my class and wondered how they did well. But one day something my teacher said really resonated with me, she basically said in order to do well one just needs to work hard. I think this made a big difference because it made my beliefs shift. The thing is that I thought that those people who did well were special in some kind of way, but when the teacher said that all you have to do is work hard. I started to believe in myself, and believe in the possibility of doing well in academics. Sure enough, I went on a big binge of studying than I had ever done before. I would study till late at night, and sometimes my father would urge me to go to bed, but I would be like, no, I do not want to go to bed I want to study. I was so motivated that I could not see myself doing anything else. And surprisingly, I did very well in school, I just believe in myself and took action. Basically I performed the three things that the law of attraction stipulates. I new what I wanted, I desired it, I believe in it, and took action. From then on, people started seeing me differently, they started identifying me as one of the smartes people in the school, and since other people started believing in me, my belief in myself sky rocketed because my environment was affirming my beliefs. I went on to do very well in my academics and graduated from middle school as one of the best students.
In high school, I did not do very well academically, my focus was on a very different thing. Here, I wanted to have an impact on the more social side of things. Basically I wanted to be one of the most porpular kids in the school. Funny enought, since I desired this so much, I became one of the most popular kids in school.
Moreover, I remember when I was applying for colleges, and I wanted to come to the United states of America, something in me just believed that I was going to make it even though the process is a long process and a daunting one. I basically desired it and started taking action and I would constantly think about the college and what I would want my experience to be. Well, I made it to college and my college experience was everything I thought it could be and then some more.
Well, at the moment there are some goals that I really want to achieve, and I know that if I believe and if I concentrate on these goals and take action I will achieve them. Basically I want to be a millionaire by the time a turn 35, now this is a very big goal and I have no idea how I am going to achieve it, but that is what I want. This goal is very inspiring because in order to achieve it, I know that I will have to change my core beliefs about money and how I relate with it. Secondly, I want to be a published writer of bestselling books, I personally think that I am a good writer, but although my college papers have sometimes not shown the grades that would identify me as such, I do believe that there is something in me that wants to write. Also, I like writing poetry and I would like to be a poet. Thirdly, my spiritualy life has kind of been lagging behind me. As a kid, I was very spiritual because I would inadvertently connect with my higher self through different practices without know that I was doing it. One thing is that as a kid, I always wanted good to happen to everyone around me, I was never in any way jealous of anybody around me, I never wanted to be like anybody else, I was comfortable in my own skin. So, my main goal is to increase my spirituality, go back to the source, search my inner self and find the kid within, the child within, the higher self, the source, the inner chi, the tao, the God within. So, those are my main goals to increase my finances, to increase my writing skills and to become more spiritual.
All in all, I hope that this look into my life will inspire me to delve into my consciousness and discover my inner light in order for me to achieve the goals I want to achieve.
