Archive for July, 2007

TODAY

July 30, 2007

Today has been an emotional day for me. Apart from the fact that I hear insults from left and right and being given my mission by God. I am overwhelmed by the feelings that my mission has brought on my friends and family.

 It is very difficult to be in my position and to suddenly find oneself without a family or home, but I guess I will put all my trust in God and He will lead me to where I need to be in order for me to do His will. For as it is written in the Bible, we are in this world to do God’s will and nothing else, but to do God’s will. So, I hope God will give me the strength to withstand all the scorn that is being hipped on me, and to withstand the loss that I have experienced.

TODAY

July 27, 2007

It is morning right now and although I have not done much, I have done a bit. My brother wants to get married to a muslimgirl and my mother does not want it to happen. However, I think that my brother’s union is blessed by God, so I advised my mother to let them get married. However, my mother did not want to hear it from me,  I do not know why. I myself have blessed the union since I like this particular girl.

I also, managed to mail some important financial aid documents to the school that I am applying to. It is good that I have done this because I want to get more financial aid instead of going to struggle in America, I would like to go and enjoy myself cooly and get a good education.

I have not read the bible in many days, I think I am going to take a shower then read the bible while I watch some TV, then maybe go to see my friends. May God lead me in everything that I do today and forever more.

Amen

MOTHER EARTH

July 26, 2007

 

Mother is the giver of life

Mother represents God on earth

Mother is connected to the universe in a way that nobody else is connected to it

In a sense in order for one to find oneself

One has to really find ones mother

Because one is born from the mother

And one lives in the mother’s womb for nine months

And the time that one lives in the mothers womb is the time that one is really serene

That is the time that one is really enlightened

So in order for one to find oneself

On has to go in the state that one was in the mother’s womb

But how does one do this once one is a grown up

In order for one to go in the calm state that one was in

One has to find the same buoyant conditions in life that one was in the mother’s womb

One has to be completely calm

One has to be trust that the mother will take care of ones needs

That is one has to trust that the universe will take care of ones needs

As in the womb one usually gets food from the mother and everything else that one needs from the mother

So when one is grown up one just needs to be calm and wait upon the Lord to provide on e with ones needs

Now, this waiting is something that people get disjointed from

Instead of people waiting intelligently, people wait carelessly

People should wait intelligently

As with the baby in the womb, when one is waiting, one should already be using the stuff that came before to grow

The baby starts as a small zygote then grows into a fully grow baby because of the food and she gets from the mother

So, man she grow into oneself because of the food that he gets from the lord

And the more food that the Lord gives you, the more that one is supposed to grow

If God gives you proteins, then you are supposed to grow muscle

If the Lord gives you carbohydrates then you are supposed to make energy with it

 

Now, we each of us have different things that the lord gives

To some, the lord gives the gift of preaching

To others the lord gives the gift of writing

To others the lord gives the gift of healing

To others the lord gives the gift of acting etcetera

So we each have to use what the Lord gives us in order to do God’s will

That is to use the gifts that God gives us in order to grow into becoming the person that we want to be

 

The lord provides for everyone according to the needs of the person and according to what the lord wants the person to accomplish on this earth

And since we are all unique,, there is nobody that is more important than the other in the eyes of God

The work of the musician is as important as the work of the Land lord

The work of the poet is as important as the work of the goldsmith

As long as what we are doing exalts the lord then we should do it with all our might and with all our soul

  

LIFE

July 26, 2007

LIFE 

ONE MAY ASK WHY DID GOD CREATE THIS THING THEY CALL LIFE

AND GOD WILL ANSWER, “I CREATED YOU SO THAT YOU MAY ENJOY LIFE”

AND ONE MAY ASK, “WHY THEN DO MANY PEOPLE SUFFER SO MUCH”

AND GOD WILL ANSWER, “IT IS BECAUSE YOU DO NOT FOLLOW MY WILL”

 SO WHAT IS THIS THING THEY CALL LIFE: 

LIFE IS TAKING A WALK IN THE AFTERNOON AND FEELING THE BREEZE WHISPERING SWEET WORDS TO YOU

LIFE IS LOVE

LIFE IS BEING IN LOVE WITH A WOMAN WHO IS MILES AWAY BUT STILL GETTING TO COMMUNICATE

LIFE IS BEING IN LOVE WITH THE MOST AMAZING WOMAN ONE HAS EVER SET EYES ON

LIFE IS LOOKING AT THE CLOUDS AND MAKING OUT AN ANGELIC FACE

THEN THINKING THAT ONE IS HALLUCINATING BECAUSE HOW CAN ONE SEE FACES IN THE CLOUDS

 SO WHAT IS THIS THING THEY CALL LIFE 

LIFE IS TAKING A WALK BY A MOSCQUE AND SEEING A CAT WALKING SOLENMLY BY AS IF REMARKING ON THE SACREDNESS OF THE PLACE

LIFE IS A VERSE

LIFE IS A SONG

LIFE IS A POEM, THAT ONE CREATES AS ONE GOES ALONG

 SO WHAT IS THIS THING THEY CALL LIFE 

LIFE IS LIKE A PAINTING, WE ARE THE PAINTERS WE SIMPLY PAINT OUR LIFE AWAY AS WE GO ALONG

LIFE IS A GIFT FROM GOD

LIFE IS TO WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND THE FIRST THING ONE DOES IS TO THANK GOD FOR BEING ALIVE ONE MORE DAY

LIFE IS FAMILY

  SO WHAT IS THIS THING THEY CALL LIFE 

LIFE IS FALING IN AND OUT OF LOVE 100 TIMES BECAUSE LOVE IS TOO GOOD

LIFE IS GOING TO CHURCH ON SUNDAY THEN GETTING OUT EARLIER BECAUSE THE GODS DEEM IT FIT TO GET OUT EARLIER

LIFE IS FIGHTING AND QUARRELING WITH ONES RELATIVES OR THINKING THAT ONE IS FIGHTING WITH ONES RELATIVES WHILE ONE IS ACTUALLY COOPERATING WITH THEM

LIFE IS BEING IN CONSTANT COMMUNION WITH ONES ANGELS EVERY MINUTE AND EVERY HOUR OF THE DAY

  SO WHAT IS THIS THING THEY CALL LIFE  

LIFE IS TAKING YOUR KIDS FOR A WALK EARLY IN THE MORNING AND PUTTING THEM TO BED LATE AT NIGHT

LIFE IS WHAT IT IS

LIFE IS SITTING DOWN IN THE AFTERNOON AND CONTEMPLATING THE GLORY OF GOD

LIFE IS GLORIOUS

LIFE IS PLEASURABLE

 

SO WHAT IS THIS THING THEY CALL LIFE 

LIFE IS KSSING YOUR LOVER IN THE MIDST OF WINTER AND A SNOW FLAKE FALLS RIGHT BETWEEN YOU AND INTERRUPTS YOUR KISS AND JUST FOR A SOLIT SECOND YOU LOOK UP, AS IF TALKING TO GOD AND EXCLAIMING AT THE MARVEL OF WHAT LIFE IS

LIFE IS A BLIND LOVER WISHING SHE COULD SEE AND REMARKING THAT THE FIRST THING SHE WANTED TO SEE IS HER LOVER’S FACE

LIFE IS CARESSING THE CHEEK OF YOUR LOVER MARVELING AT THE TOUCH AND CARE THAT GOD TOOK IN CREATING YOUR LOVER

LIFE IS ATTENDING CONCERT WITH HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE AND FEELING A SENSE OF ONENESS AS THE MUSICIAN BELTS OUT HIS OR HER RHYMES

LIFE IS A WOMAN WONDERING WHETHER SHE IS GOING TO GET MARRIED BY THE RIGHT MAN, AND WONDERING IF SHE IS BEAUTIFUL ENOUGH TO GET A MAN

LIFE IS HAVING A FRIENDS GROWING UP TOGETHER, PLAYING EVER SINCE THEY ARE YOUNG, AND BEING TOGETHER UNTIL THEY ARE OLD

 

TODAY

July 25, 2007

Today has actually been a very good day thanks to God. I woke up well, did my errands and ate well. I went to the usual place to hang out with my buddies then went for my walk, then I also got a major communication from my future wife to be. SO, I thank God for making this day as wonderful as it has been, and I aks Him to be with me this night, so that I may wake up tomorrow Morning with His Grace and mercy.

I am not really doing anything major right now, just waiting for my good results to reach me because of my hard work. I hope that the good results will reach me in good stade. Thanks to GOd for enabling me to be able to work hard.

Amen

I DELIGHT IN THE LORD

July 23, 2007

I delight in singing a song for the lord….

I hope that God will let me sing much more…

In troubles I turn to him

Give me strength my lord

I have no strength to carry this that I am carrying right now

To be alone in this world is the worst thing ever

We were created to care about each other

To be alone in this world is the worst thing

I write again, that the light has lost

If what happened to me really happened

And I humble myself knowing that what happens to someone can also happen to me

I ask for your strength o lord

And I ask that you do not judge too harshly

And I ask that you give me the connection that I need

The feeling of love and acceptance that I need

For we all need love and acceptance

We all do, even someone as strong as me

I HUMBLE MYSELF

July 23, 2007

I humble myself at your behest my father

I humble myself at your behest because what you are asking of me

No one has ever asked of me

Send your Angel before me to prepare the way for me

I humble myself at your behest because I do not have strength to do what you have asked of me

What you are asking of me is too huge again

I am sorry because sometimes I doubt you

And yet you are the perfect one, the impotent, the infallible, the omnipotent

I look at your earthly face and I doubt

I am sorry my father, my mother, for ever doubting you

All I have to do is to follow your will and I will be alright

To walk by faith instead of walking by sight

To believe instead of disbelieving

I will do your will my lord

Though what you are asking of me seems like a mountain right now

Yet there are people who climbed the highest mountains on earth

Oh Lord, the great one, carry me, show me the way

Clear the road for me, for your servant really wants to do your will

The mountain seems insurmountable, but it is climbable

I need you, mother earth, creator of the universe

Send your great spirit and your great Angels to give me strength

O Lord, show me the way and tell me what to do

There are tremors and earthquakes

Are you angry o lord

Are you angry at your creation

Or is it just science

Is this your anger o lord

Have mercy on your creation.

SERMONS

July 23, 2007

Our feebleness and low intelligence compared to God is slow to respond

 

Don’t ask God how what he wants you to do is going to get done, just do what God asks you to do

 

God is never slow to respond, God wants us to work by faith and not by sight

 

Have the mind of Christ. God is always ready to do for you

 

Functioning in the anointing of God brings light to the church and to everything that you do

 

God is always more ready to hear than we are ready to pray

THE GOD FORCE

July 23, 2007

The God force is flowing through my body

The blood of Jesus is flowing in my veins

I am purified by the breath of the lord

The lord is my shepherd and I am his sheep

The lord shepherds me to greener pastures

He does not let me fall

He carries me upon the greater heights

He makes me fly like and eagle in the sky

He makes me cry and laugh at the same time

My love for the lord is only rivaled by the love I have for His creation

Indeed my love for his creation is love for the lord

For what he created is partly the lord because everything comes from the lord

So the more I love His creation the more I love the lord

The God force flows through me

DEAR GOD

July 23, 2007

I am a little bit psychologically and emotionally bruised right now because of some bad things that have happened to me. Many people have told me that I need to cry but I have no idea where the tears will come from because what has happened to me is unbelievable. I for once find myself weakened and I need strength to have a higher self esteem and to once again believe that I am indeed a person that is valued.

I know that people will say that you should look upon the Lord, but when the people immediate to you are supposed to protect you and they don’t then it becomes very difficult. And the emotional and psychological scars are still unbearable. I am sure that you have a hand in my situation and you will prevail, and though people consider me a winner in this process. If what happened to me has truly happened then I consider myslef a loser and also I consider the world also has experienced a loss in some way.

We need to work harder to put a  lot of light in the world. And I need a lot of light in me, because just this once I find myself alone.

 Paul