STATS EXAM

I just did my stat exam, guessed some answers cause I had no idea what was going on. Need to prepare better next time.

GRATITUDE PRAYER

Thank you for the life that  you have given me

Thank you for giving me the wisdom to accept myself as I am

Thank you for believing in me

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to grow

NEGATIVE ENERGY

I have noticed that there are people who really affect me negativelt, now this might be a reaction so something that is in me that I do not like. Basically, the reasoning is that when there is something about someone else that you do not like, it means that you have the same issues.

But at the same time, there are some people who will transfer their negative energy towards you, subconsciously or consciously by making snide comments and negative remarks. So, what to do when you are faced with situations where the negativity seems unbearable.

Well, one thing you can do is basically get out of the situation as fast as possible because sometimes the costs of a negative environment are too large. Secondly, if one is not able to get out of the current environment one has to have thick skin and just have a stable mind. Basically one should be focused on what one is trying to accomplish and nothing else. Peolple make negative comments or snide remarks or try to spread their negativity because they are inherently insecure about themselves and they feel like they have to go around putting other people down so that they can feel better. You know the reasoning that the world is a better place because I can share my misery with other people. For example, when one is in a situation where one feels uncomfortable, one is always told to endure because he is not the only one in that situation. I think that this reasoning is fullish because it makes one aspire to mediocrity in every aspect of life.  In the sense that one feels like there is a soft tune beating ones heart and one wants to follow the dictates of ones heart, one will be discouraged  if one would always compare oneself too other people.  One cannot really compare oneself to other people and get  directions according to the dictates of other people because majority of people do not have the courage to follow their hearts.

Anway, the ability to function in circumstances that are not good is an important ability, because sometimes we find ourselves in circumstances that will reqquire a lot of strength and will in order to move forward. Currently, I am in a situation where I feel like there is a lot of negativity coming from people around me, and I have no idea why some people just rub me off the wrong way. I have tried different techniques but sometimes I feel like it is very difficult when there is a lot of negativity coming in my way. Like today, I have situations where two people have made negative remarks towards me, and I have been in a situation where people transferred their negative energy to me.

I hope that I will find the secrets of dealing with all these negativity, or maybe it might just be me acting paranoid and playing games with my mind. Who knows…

GRATITUDE PRAYER

Thank you for giving met he strength to go to class today.

Thank you for bringing all the people I need to help me achieve my goals

TODAY

Today has been a good day as far as getting things accomplished, I accomplished everything that I wanted to accomplish, and though non of them are in perfect condition, I sigh and move on becaue perfection is overrated. Seemingly, I am tired right now and just feel like going to bed, but I will listen to some soulful music, meditate a little and connect with my innner muse and see what happens.

So, I read Sidharta the other day, a book written by one Herman Hesse. The book basically talks about a young mans search for inner peace, enlightenment or nirvana. The presmise of the books is that in our search for inner peace, we should not follow people blindly and implement what they tell us, but we should look insided ourselves and listen and follow the directions of our inner muse. I find this very empowering in that it is something that I have been inadvertently doing every since I was a kid, I just did not consciously know that I was doing it. The many days when I just sat down and looked at the sky were days that I channeled and talked to my angel. Reflecting on this, I realized that I am a person that needs time to be alone everyday for reflection.

I intend that tomorrow will bring more blessings, blessings unseen, and blessings unheardd of.

GRATITUDE PRAYER

Thank you lord for giving me a wonderful family, a loving family

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to study

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to experience life in its entirety

Thank you for giving me the gift to discern truth

Shower me with the spirit

Allow your radiant light to shine through me

TRANSITION

Have you ever been at a place where you feel like there is no going forward and there is no going back

When you are afraid to take the next step

Knowing that taking the next step will involve you shedding some of your skin

I had no idea growing up would be so hard

I feel like I am losing a part of me

My inner child, the one who was so curious, the one who was so carefree

Yeah, I am on transition, and at some point I will have to take that next step.

Or maybe I alreadt took the next step,

Maybe I have already arrived that is why this place seems so unfamiliar

Maybe I am on foreign territory and just have to learn the strategies of living in this new territory

Huh! Maybe I have arrived.

I LONG FOR THOSE DAYS

I long for the days when I would just sit down and think

I long for the days when I would just sit down and listen to music

I long for those days when I would just dance aways the whole night

I long for those days when I lived for the moment and never worried about the future

met challenges as they occured

I long for those days when I would fall in love in a heart bit

I long for those days when I would just look at you and smile

I long for those days when I would succeed with inner effort

when some inner light was guiding me

I long for those days when I would just be

I long for those days…..

THE RIGHT PATH

We all have our paths to follow

We all have our lives to lead

There is no perfect path

To each his own

You might go left and I might go right

But in this path there is oneness

While I am on my path, I am on yours

While you are on your path, you are 0n mine

To each is own

We all have to be brave and work the path

The path to self healing, the path to nirvana, the path to oneness

There is no right and no wrong

There is no good and no evil

All are one, all are necessary

Who am I to judge?

Why am I judging?

There is no right path

The way of the warrior is to listen to ones heart

Listening to ones environment

Ones heart will not always tell you the same things all the time

But it will tell you the perfect thing at that time

So listen to the inner voice

That is the right path

My Goals

I still feel a little bit scared and apprehensive of the future. I have been doing a lot of self analysis and using the law of attraction model, have realized how I have attracted many things in my life without nowing that I was attracting them. I do not remember so much of my childhood days but all I know is that I was very slow as a child as in dumb in class and I did not have a lot of refined motor skills. I have no idea why I was like this, but funny enough there are times when I would show impromptu characteristics of bravery, risk behavior, brilliance and the like.

I remember one time I was waiting for my mother to pick me from school when I was in nursery school, my mother was late and I just decided to go home alone. Now, this is a very brave decision for a kid who is about 6 years old. At that time I just decided to do it.  Als0, I was never very brillian academically, I did not know why, but I just was not brilliant, but I started becoming better academically when I started becoming more brave and enjoying my time in school. Moreover, I really started looking for ways on how I could improve myself academically. I looked upon the most brilliant students in my class and wondered how they did well. But one day something my teacher said really resonated with me, she basically said in order to do well one just needs to work hard. I think this made a big difference because it  made my beliefs shift. The thing is that I thought that those people who did well were special in some kind of way, but when the teacher said that all you have to do is work hard. I started to believe in myself, and believe in the possibility of doing well in academics. Sure enough, I went on a big binge of studying than I had ever done before. I would study till late at night, and sometimes my father would urge me to go to bed, but I would be like, no, I do not want to go to bed I want to study. I was so motivated that I could not see myself doing anything else. And surprisingly, I did very well in school, I just believe in myself and took action. Basically I performed the three things that the law of attraction stipulates. I new what I wanted, I desired it, I believe in it, and took action.  From then on, people started seeing me differently, they started identifying me as one of the smartes people in the school, and since other people started believing in me, my belief in myself sky rocketed because my environment was affirming my beliefs. I went on to do very well in my academics and graduated from middle school as one of the best  students.

 In high school, I did not do very well academically, my focus was on a very different thing. Here, I wanted to have an impact on the more social side of things. Basically I wanted to be one of the most porpular kids in the school. Funny enought, since I desired this so much, I became one of the most popular kids in school.

Moreover, I remember when I was applying for colleges, and I wanted to come to the United states of America, something in me just believed that I was going to make it even though the process is a long process and a daunting one. I basically desired it and started taking action and I would constantly think about the college and what I would want my experience to be. Well, I made it to college and my college experience was everything I thought it could be and then some more.

Well, at the moment there are some goals that I really want to achieve, and I know that if I believe and if I concentrate on these goals and take action I will achieve them. Basically I want to be a millionaire by the time a turn 35, now this is a very big goal and I have no idea how I am going to achieve it, but that is what I want. This goal is very inspiring because in order to achieve it, I know that I will have to change my core beliefs about money and how I relate with it.  Secondly, I want to be a published writer of bestselling books, I personally think that I am a good writer, but although my college papers have sometimes not shown the grades that would identify me as such, I do believe that there is something in me that wants to write. Also, I like writing poetry and I would like to be a poet. Thirdly, my spiritualy life has kind of been lagging behind me. As a kid, I was very spiritual because I would inadvertently connect with my higher self through different practices without know that I was doing it. One thing is that as a kid, I always wanted good to happen to everyone around me, I was never in any way jealous of anybody around me, I never wanted to be like anybody else, I was comfortable in my own skin. So, my main goal is to increase my spirituality, go back to the source, search my inner self and find the kid within, the child within, the higher self, the source, the inner chi, the tao, the God within.  So, those are my main goals to increase my finances, to increase my writing skills and to become more spiritual.

All in all, I hope that this look into my life will inspire me to delve into my consciousness and discover my inner light in order for me to achieve the goals I want to achieve.